Me and You, Together

I may look calm, but there is time when I will went berserk and emo, and that where you come into my life. 

I never felt that I will be able to get to this level with my own strength, I am able to reach here is because of you. 

You, my chibi who I love the most is the reason why I am able to improve this much. 

You, the one who always push me to go on when I want to back out. 

When I am down and emo, you be there for me, care about me and even encourage me in any way you can think of.

and

When I went berserk, you are the one who calm me down, make me regain my thinking. Bring me back to the right path, be there for me, support me until I totally calm down and unberserk.

Yes, You are my backbone, the one that support me and put me to my limit.

You are my dear chibi, Prince Xiao Rain. ^^

I Love You.

When I berserk, you will always be there to stop me. This is why you and me mean to be together.

AFAMY, an event to remeber as a helper

I have been doing helper job since 2009 anicom, so I always think I am able to pull a nice skit of with my acting but thanks to the huge disappointment I got at C2age when I lost to a Miku who is not even original and complete.....a huge big arrow pierce through me hard time.....but, I am glad that....Sky mama and Narukids haha-ue both of them still believe in me....choose me as their backstage helper when there are alot of people suits the category....that itself already boost up my confident abit..

And here, I saw this big stage of AFAMY.....I keep on thinking, when will be my turn to stand at the big stage ?? and this boost me even more....the Zawawi siblings who started just recently already able to stand there and do one epic awesome skit. I feel beaten and at the same time, I want to join more competition. I know this I cannot fully blame my so-called "partner" who never even work together to do props with me....do audio together....you know where I will go if I started ranting, so I better stop here. 

I helped my mama, Sky in his skit as backstage helper to set up all the props but sadly the main one doesn't go smoothly, the wind on the stage was strong and that props unable to stand still. But lucky, we have Kuro who is another helper of Sky to ninja the prop to stand. And this photo is my brother Xajin handshake with my mama Sky....I was thinking also when will be my turn go compete against them in the same stage and level. XDDD

This are some few photos I took together with the guest stars.

you know what, I so gona join the competition next year. Ya, that's a promise.

But what I want to say is there is chibi behind me keep on pushing me to go where I can go but I refuse to go with the reason "I'm not able to go" but she keep on push me there plus the things that happen during this event makes me change my mind. I will improve myself and one day I will compete with all I got. ^^

Thank You Bii aka Prince Xiao Rain aka XiaoRain aka my darling ^^ muacks, I Love You and thanks for stand by me and support me so much. Without you, I don't think I can reach this level also. ^^

My new partner in crime ?

I don't know why I am writing this after so long I didn't update here. Oh well, this feeling keeps bothering me for quite a while already but this past few events, I confirm that already. My partner in crime in cosplay field might change from Chiko to Shin.....

Why ?? Recently, I have been thinking of a lot of skits which some of it need partner and Shin always fits in the tag team nicely with me....and at the same time, I helped Shin with his music with my own idea (somehow in a way) and then the same recently, me n Shin has been going for same series cosplay plan *cirno/daiyousei, ZUN/beatMARIO, shanghai/hourai (?)*

I feel bad for Chiko who first ask me to be her partner for WCS.....but until now, me n Chiko only do one skit together in the competition. Oh well, I seriously don't know lahh XDDD

I am very ok with teaming up with Chiko or Shin.....since all of us are housemate after all. But still, let's see who I am better teaming up with lahh xDDDD

It hurts...seriously....it really hurts

I guess I went overboard again with my playfulness. Well, I admit I am playful, but in relationship, I am dead serious. Yet, all I want is to make my girlfriend happy with my playful and hyperactive, but I think it backfired or I really did something wrong which I myself don't know.

Well, boys will always feel deeply hurt when the girl he loves the most ignores him. But, good thing about boys is they will never give up on the girl he loves the most, even if he needs to live through a lifetime of torture to get her to forgive him. Hey, there is no exception for me also.

I may not be good when comes to sweet talking or make you feel happy and smile instantly everyday. But, I am doing my best to do so. I may not understand you fully right now, but I willing to take time to understand you more. In a relationship, both sides have to understand each other one right ?

When I am able to be at your side, I will hug and kiss you to clear all the depressing emotions and bad memories that we have and of cause, I going to insert as many nice memories as I can with whatever I can like go dating with you, surprise you or just plain hugging and kissing you.

It actually rips me apart. It hurts when we don't talk or you ignore me. Especially at night, when I am alone, the pain starts to grow within my thinking, is like a million times deeper then the surface feels. All the questions that I keep wandering starts to pop out in my head and I always have no freaking idea on what actually happening or what did I do wrong.

My heart actually hurts alot, but I gonna hold on to it because I know you will come back to me. So, I don't mind going into the sea of suffering myself, keep every single sadness to myself and show the world that I am alright, no worries with my smile that covers everything. But what is worst is, during night I have to bear the pain myself and then the next morning, wake up and start to think about you, worry about you yet no reply or anything back from you or ignore by you, and go through the same phrase again until my poor heart break down.

But then, no worries, hey I am ok here XDD Life goes on, I will take a nap and next morning everything will be ok already ^^ because I believe that after a Windy storm, there will be a beautiful Rainbow awaits us afterwards.

anyway, Rain, no matter what happen, I Still Love You ^^

my 7th Months In Relationship Anniversary together with Rain

During 21 August 2011, I recover and got into an relationship with my chibi now, Prince Xiao Rain~and from that time, I changed my nickname from "WeN Izayoi" into "Prince Siao Wen"

We most of the time "dating" via online, once in a while only, meet up and dating for real but most of the time, are mostly event time. And liek this, we have been through for 7 months already ^^ We laugh together, have fun together, troll together, tease each other and sometimes I being an annoying bastard to you, you tsun towards me and many more things happens within this 7 months, all i am happily loving it =D

I hope that I can hangout and visit your house every week at least once, at least get to go dating with you more time ^^

Dear Prince Xiao Rain,

Thank you being my girlfriend, eventhough I am an useless, annoying baka, but you still choose me as your boyfriend. Thank you for making my life being so nice again ^^ I Love You, Rain ^^

our 1st time cosplay webcaming .////.

our 1st camwhore photo~~

1st couple/duo cosplay plan >////<

our 2nd photo together~~and is on newspaper ^^

I Love You, My dear Chibi Rainrain Princess.

P/S: sorry that I lie about your meido costume because I want to surprise you today, cuz today is our 7th month anniversary....but i think i kind of fail since you just cheh on it TwT i will try harder next time, n surprise u more ^^

Random Dating day XDD

On 16 Feb, actually I have not thing to do at Cyberjaya, then suddenly my brother, Xajin called me and offer me to go find my girlfriend, Rain at Ampang. So, yeah Xajin come up to Cyberjaya and brought me to Ampang.

Along the way, we got lost abit n thanks to my stupidity in directions, we get even more lost then have to call Rain for SOS. Lucky for us, we are lost not far from her house. Then we reach d, pick her up then we went to the nearby cafe, MOMO cafe there to have supper and then we play a new board game that Xajin bought.

I lose in that game badly XD well, is a very nice board game, all depends on luck and ALOT of thinking XDD after we finish the board game, Xajin send me n Rain back to her house. At her house, we hangout at her brother's room, which is the place where i have to sleep for the night.

We watch, talk, msn, play until have nothing to play, so we went on to play "pull the bulu". So, Rain and her brother use duct tape and tape it on my leg and pull it until one point, the tape doesn't pull off my leg hair anymore, then we stop and went to bed.

Then the next morning, I was woke up by Rain and her dogs (sowiie for being a sleepy-head, biii><), we went to KLCC on the 17 Feb. 1st, Rain wants to do survey for her assignment and 2nd is we want to go kinokuniya to use our RM 200 book voucher to buy books. So, after reaching at KLCC, we went for breakfast and Rain meet her friend there too. So, we went to kinokuniya and buy books. After buying, we went to survey around, walk walk around and having fun abit =D

Then when almost 6pm, we went depart from KLCC and i sended Rain and her brother to Cempaka Station and wait until they both get up the bus then only I went back to cyberjaya.

It's was a very very happy day ^^ although i not being myself (the hyperactive side), but i m truly happy that i am able to go for a date together with my girlfriend. ^^

Next time, I will be as myself when go dating with you ya, biii ^^

my drawing during valentine day ^^

sorry bii, during valentine day, i unable to be with you. But 16 and 17 i hope it can replace valentine day =) muacks, i love you, Rain ^^

Dei's Housewarming ^^

5 February, DeidaraGS invite us to his new house for a mini-housewarming, but sadly it meet up with Randy's Exam time and Chiko don't feel like following because Randy is not going. So, left me and Shin who went to the housewarming.

On the morning that day, Shin didn't sleep at all while me is actually half-asleep. We plan to go out on 8.30am but we kind of leave the house at 9.30am. Lucky for us, we manage to reach Ampang Station and also lucky for us, Gems is pick us up to Dei's new house because we don't how to go with public transport.

Before Gems pick us, she went to pick up my chibi biibii, Rain ^^ after that, we went to pick up Gyps too and reach Dei's house quite early. We sit and chitchat for a while, play some card awhile, then we went to play in the swimming pool.

We play quite long time in the swimming pool and went up to eat pizza but it not enough for me and Shin didnt get to eat at all since he went to sleep. Thanks to Gems again, who brought me n Shin to buy McD to eat.

Lastly, of cz I want to say thank you to my chibi biibii la~~*hug u* thanks for the day ya, I have so much fun together with you. I hope we can go out dating soon again ^^ Muacks, I love you, Rain ^^

currently, we both are having fever, I hope my chibi biiibii, Rain recover ASAP .///. muacks

I kind of did it again

aikss, looks like I did a mistake again. I made my si chibi yang comel tu angry on me. I somehow have no idea what have I did wrong but I admit is my fault. I don't know how to cheer you up and I don't know the correct and fancy words to say to you. But....

Baby I am sorry and I LOVE YOU very much.
no matter how down/unhappy or angry at me, I will always be there to catch you and greet or cheer you up with a smile.

2011 memories yo

Ohai !! everyone who still following my lil kiri blog~~after a long hiatus, i am finally back for some update~~

Well, basically there is not much to update, hey i gona post up what happen within 2011 and also in my hiatus XDDDD HERE WE GO~~~

my 2011 cosplay plans xDD

touhouvania Sakuya Izayoi (crossplay)

Kirisame Marisa (crossplay)

Sakuya Izayoi (crossplay)

Ruka Urushibara (Cosplay)

Lily white (Crossplay) this is our Touhou Malaysia Group Family Photo ^^

Kaguya Houraisan (Crossplay which won me 2nd place ^^) I am so proud of this crossplan ^^

Leo (Cosplay) The Fairy Tail Group I join.

Kobayashi aka Kobasen (Cosplay, my 1st old man cosplay plan)

My baby ^w^

Kamijyo Touma Injured Ver. (Cosplay)

Me and My Biiibiii *w* (Touma Ballroom ver. Cosplay)

nyannn~~~ *w* (Kirisame Marisa, Crossplay)

My touhou main character groupie ^^

Biiibiii~~~~~I love you ^^ Jom 2012, let us be more closer then 2011 =3

Lazy...LAzy...LAZy...LAZYYY !!!!!

the picture says it all....so i will be rolling around and see when i got the mood to update my this kiri blog ^^

I fallen again =D

I duno~but recently ya, i fallen again >///< that's all i gona say xDDD

chuuu >///<

i fallen for a miko~another one is the one i care the most >///<

this picture shows it all >///<

u need to enlarge the 2 comic page to see what's the dialog >///<

Answer for that quesion.....hehe~~find out at my facebook lahh xPP

I am the Love colored Star and You are the Wind of Miracle. Together we are love colored wind of miracle star that shines brightly on the sky above. ^^

Penang really is a memories island

oh well, here I am back to Penang. Actually I have 2 things to worry or check it out when I come back to Penang. 1st, my grandma and 2nd, my dad.

Both are the most important family member to me yet both get admit into hospital when I was at Cyberjaya and what make it worst is I am the LAST of all the family member to get know about this (I mean my grandma's case). My dad's case is after my dad admit himself in the hospital and my mom found out eventually then immediately call me and tell me about this both stuff.

For a while, I was worried but still need to focus on study that time, so I give both of them a call and ask for their health. Both give me the same answer "I'm ok, don't worry so much."

Well, so here I am back to Penang and the next day is my grandma's birthday party ^^ Seeing my grandma's smile makes me happy =D and of cause some "long-time-tak-jumpa-punya" cousin also there. So we have some eating,joking,chitchating then party abit then all get home.

Full Family Photos ^^
Well is been a while we take this kind of photo xDDD

hardworking WeN is rare XDDD

Well, after we form a group Buffllamas, Chiko,Aya and Angie, three of the top artist in the group encourage me to improve my drawing, and there is go, everyday draw one drawing and ink it up with colours and backgrounds ^^

Starting, my only problem is line and hand shaking....then after a while, my tablet die on me, which makes me to go into using mouse to draw my drawing, and of cuz the result doesn't looks like what I expected...QAQ....but thx to Chiko, she help me on searching for tutorials on how to get a smoother line and inking/colouring.

Then now-a-days when I free, I found myself surfing youtube for Paint Tool SAI speed-painting videos. Looking at how they draw and settings but one thing is....they are all fast-forwarded so need to like re-watch 3 or 4 times, just to see the settings and the tech ^^

But still come to the most important one is still PRACTICE YOURSELF which I rarely did xDDD but now-a-days I kinda found myself keep on drawing, exploring the Paint Tool SAI and getting more critics from others, asking for SOS etc etc.

Which is I rarely did...the only time i will do this is when assignment...i mean last time xDD. ok, well that's all i can say, I will show some of my drawing that I did, but is still in a very noob stage QAQ

This one is half way drawing, my tablet die...

Then this "marisa" is using mouse to modify the lines to be more smoother ^^

A picture which i use almost all the tools to test out =D

My recent complete drawing of my waifu, Kirisame Marisa XPPP all done by using mouse and the "curve tool" ^^

Will upload the complete ver. once i am done =)

Starting to draw back =)

After a long hiatus from syok sendiri drawing, I have start to draw stuff back not just for assignment and also myself. What makes it nicer is I now officially joining my gang and form a doujin group which last time was a far away dream for me. XDDD

Hehehe~~So, our group consist of Chiko Boss, Ran Manbitch, Ayayayaya, Hadi The Buffllama, Angie/Choyuki The Cashier and your truly WeN The Baka.....And our group name is not other then calling it Buffllamas xDDD


Ya, as you can see, even I am grouping up with some awesome artist, but still I actually have no confidence to myself. But, I will still try out. =D

Here are some pictures that I draw. =)
The Scarlet Devil Mansion Badges Design. =)
This is the Team Immortal (Kaguya and Mokou) Bookmark.
Chibi PC98 Marisa...will re-draw and re-paint for this. ^^
Sanae Kochiya. Don't know should use this as a bookmark also or not. XPP

Will continue drawing and improve ^^

Weird feeling.....hm.....stupid dream ==|||

Well, since my school just reopen today, i got a very weird feeling...a feeling that i use to have but gone for quite some time already....if i say like this, people sure say "must be missing your ex and envy that boy", i 100% can tell you that the answer is "NOT THAT PROBLEM ANYMORE !!!"

But, is true the feeling is there, but i already give up my hope, and my heart already seal up and recover fully, you can ask taka and riza they both saw the reborn hyperactive WeN =D so, ya i not sure about how come this feeling is inside my heart.

Wait!! I don't really get it, but my heart aches when my friends are not around!!

Somehow, ya....Although I look fearless to anything, but to be honest, my biggest fear is being alone....without anyone who i care.....I never want to go back to the old self when I am still immature.
I am a dark person who don't give a damn to other people when I was a kid.

I was once a hikikomori who likes to shut myself in the house and all I think is for myself, I am freaking selfish when I am at my 7 to 12 years old. All I think is myself and i don't give a damn to others. I am a very dark person, who only believe myself and never wanted to be friends with other people...I am always playing my toys myself. Teamwork ?? I never believe it until.....

This incident happen, I actually got into a fight without know what reason (maybe is just people picking on me for being arrogant and unsociable). Of cause that time, I wasn't able to fight myself out from 15 people who gang up on me. Thanks to one of my classmate which is my very 1st friend in my life. He helped me...although I did to her was ignore his request of help when he needs me before this incident happen.

After all the beating, all I can do is smile to him who helped me get out of this mess by calling the teachers.

Besides for him to be my 1st friend, he is also the 1st one to see me smile like an normal innocent kid does. He actually helps me to be a sociable person and become who I am today. Well to bad for me, I also don't know where the hell he is now. Really need to say thank you to him anyway. If not because of him, I think I will be somewhere in my room playing my own games now and not writing this blog post. xDDD

Although the weird feeling is still with me, but for now, I know I have a bunch of friends that I can trust alot is with me. Will try to get rid of this stupid weird feeling asap......

So, no worries, no more EMO WeN(another name of tat persona is KAI) will appear, only the hyper baka WeN will appear =D

CHEESSSHHH~~~~Smile everyday =D

Enjoy the sad song I love to listen =)

Blog server down.

Server down due to owner too stupid to handle it.......

The up coming Touhou game is too badass, so the owner will into coma for a while.

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WeN: It's a lie of cause, my blog will go into a hold for a while since school going to re-open =D